I push my fingers into my eyes…

(March 24th, 2007 @ 1836 - Stephen - Life)

I’m so fucking bored it is unreal. I haven’t been this bored in my life, there just isn’t anything to do anymore. Working 9-5 (ish) takes a lot out of you, that sometimes you just wish you didn’t have a job at all. Even then, without a job, nothing else breaks the mundane day to day routine of just simply waking up and going to sleep. Even World of Warcraft can’t hold my attention for longer than a few minutes.

I think my problem comes from nothing having anyone to share this painful boredom with. Everyone I know is in a pair or a couple, which makes it hard to convey how weary I am - it’s like waking up and just sitting in the same place for 14 hours then going back to sleep. Now imagine that never changes, ever. That is how I break up my days.

And you can’t do anything as a single person. Drinking alone is beyond frowned upon, it’s wrong - shopping is pointless unless you actually need anything, and what the fuck do you need when you don’t do anything, it’s not like I need a new tennis racket - going to a cafe and drinking coffee alone is beyond silly, it’s a cry for help. University makes this type of situations bearable, you are alone but among like-minded individuals who are never more than several feet away. A collective of people. However, once you get into the real world, you are truly alone and that is the problem.

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